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i’m still alive…..

yes long time sooo sorry not that i really think anyone reads this. but have been through alot these last few months. i am divorced now that has been a long rough road. it was final this month. mixed feelings on it kind of a catch 22 if you will. i moved to another state and i dont get to be with my kids all the time they stayed with their dad it was the best thing for them since i moved. the kids seem to be getting a lil bit use to coming to visit and i do call them everyday or almost everyday. been very hard to move and be somewhere new but i do like it here i like living in a big city and the mountain view is gorgous. trying to look for work i want to go to school need to see what i can do for financial aid. i am online alot but i play world of warcraft most of the time. i havent meant to keep any of my friends at bay just so much to go through in such a short time that i have just wanted to be alone. i am sure most of u understand =) will try to update this more often now that things have gone a little more normal. hope all is well with all of you have a great weekend. i’m getting nervous another bday coming meh i dont want to get older *cries* lol

no see hahaha just been busy with life, i am watching a baby during the day and finally got called in to work meh only two months if i am lucky we needed more to be able to get some things done to the house. the sliding door needs to be replaced and the linolium is pulling up only been here 6 years but it was cheap lino and not laid very well 0.o frustrating. carpet needs to be replaced too cheapest stuff i have ever seen. an of course been playing wow it just keeps me occupied something to look forward to daily, then i am not thinking about my grandparents being gone and my dad having a rough go of it with no job etc. i can be in another world for a lil while. still on the diet its going very slowly only lost about 10 pounds but i’ll keep plugging away have 15 more or so to go….i’ll try not to go so long without posting next time lol! its just been hard this time last year my grandpa was in and out of the hospital and things werent good and then he passed so i try not to think about that and just the good stuff =)

yep i took the plunge i need to do it for me lol! i just dont like this weight i exercise and try to eat right but nothing seems to work. so i joined la weightloss. after all is said and done (you get a rebate back) i will have paid $33 or so per month for their program including a year of support not too bad? i am on day two of their two day express i think its like a flushing type thing get rid of salt and sugar from you system and put your metabolism back in a normal state. i feel great so far not hungry or anything, have a sugar w/drawl headache but that is pretty normal. i have been this far b4 getting rid of water weight etc but i am more curious for the weeks to come how much i can lose. i should be at my goal weight by the end of may just in time for our 18th anniversary. will be interesting i can do it as long as i am seeing results its when there is no results i tend to get discouraged and the “why bother” attitude lol! but i need this something positive after all the crappy things that have happened. will post here how its going keeping my fingers crossed!

lol! well this whole car mess isnt over bah! i did finally get my car back last tuesday what a joke! and yeah only 5 day rental so i went quite some time with no car good thing my dad is around and able to take nathan and pick him up from school if need be. soooooo i filed a complaint with the state dept of justice and will be requesting a arbitration with the better business bureau and calling acura back they get to listen to my story =) cuz i am like that lol! the bbb thing is what a lawyer told me to do since they didnt “actually” breech their contract he couldnt help me its more an ethics kind of thing like who the heck sends already broken parts? hello! and since its a “used” transmission well we get the fear of hoping it dont break down again what a joy. so far tho it seems to be ok and actually getting the gas milage it use to so. “knockonwood” its ok for now. we will be selling it tho soon as we get our financial stuff in order. we’ll by a used car for the kids and use the rest to put down on a new car for me yes NEW no used warrenty crap! at least for that car lol! trying to get nathan to read over the drivers manual not going to good lol he doesnt want to and i want him to lol! i know soon as i hit 15 i was down there taking that test lol! but not him so will see where that goes i “need” him to be able to drive next year so i can work day shift will be much easier if he can drive. well anyway that is about all over here. trying to get some projects done and found a new lil craft beading to try out there is a few lil projects i want to try and see how it goes. i havent been too into scrapbooking or sewing or crochet but i think that was all from being depressed about my grandparents its getting better so i think i am emerging from my craft funk. =)

by rob bell is what we watched sunday at church it was amazing he is a great speaker..the site is www.nooma.com go check it out! and yep still no car, but the place its at now is pretty sure they know what is wrong and can fix most of it they think there migh be something electrical wrong as well so will have to wait and see. in the meantime i have no transportation its really hard! not that i go alot of places but i do have to take my son too and from school which is a 25 min drive one way. thankfully my dad is helping us out and hopefully we wont have to worry too much about not having a car. but no exercise for me gah! so hard! the warrenty place has a contract with you guessed it enterprise! so no renting from them. we would have to pay out of pocket and it takes about three weeks to get your money back after submitting the receipt. soooo not sure what to do there will check some prices for a car. hope ya’lls week better than mine! =)

so hard grandma is gone and grandpa. i confided in them alot and its hard to not have anyone to talk to..someone who doesnt judge you loves you for who you are isnt condescending…well if that all wasnt bad enough my car broke on thurs the transmission. we have an extended warrenty so you would think ok i just take it in and they will fix it etc. well i took it in and had to rent a car i dont like enterprise never have never will. but since i was in a bind had no way home and needed to take my son to school the next day i went ahead and did it. well turns out the dealer wont fix it they dont want to do the required work that the warrenty company requires geeeeeez! so i get to pay for a rental and for them to “diagnose” my car for nothing and mind u we are on a fixed income. soooo i call another place that just does transmissions and they are more than happy to have our business and said everything the warrenty company is wanting is “normal” and a given thing they do it all the time and have never had a problem! so wtf is with the dealer? just a big waste of time and $90 geeeez! and so all stressed over all this when i got the car they came to me and mind you all this stuff is going on i just brought my car in i’m calling the warrenty place etc and this is a acura/mercedes dealer u would think they would have their own rental place but no. so when the guy tells me oh u can bring the car back between 3-4pm that is what stuck in my head we get it 24 hours etc well i forgot he mentioned that they close at 2pm on SAT! so here i am thinking 3-4pm and of course we get there and their closed and not open till MONDAY. so i think ok i drop the key off in the box. well i do and then read the sign that says IF you drop them off you are charged to the next buiness day! wtf! so yeah monday i AMNOT paying that its rediculous the guy didnt say anything about that and in the state of mind ur in when all these stuff is happening isnt the best time geez soo yeah i’m all stressed not to mention no car for at least a week but the place we did get it to mind you we had to drive the car with the bad trans all the way there, say there wont be any more problems they have dealt with this warrenty place and will have it all ready to go for their adjuster to come out and take a look on monday or tues so i am more confident in their ability to get this done as painless as possible so we should only have to pay $50 more dollars not sure what i will do with enterprise they will try to get their money and i am going to have to fight this not to mention i left my favorite cup in the car gah! i didnt grab i wasnt thinking when we took it back that they wouldnt be there. so yeah its been crap these last few weeks i just hope it gets better. we need a family vacation so badly we havent been on one since 1999 when we went to disneyland. every year we think ok we can save what i make working my seasonal job for a vacation and then something always happens. *sigh* i think i just give up. we started going back to a church close by about 15 min or so away hubby really likes it there and i think we needed to get connected again. we dont know anyone there really but i hope eventually we can meet other couples and feel like we belong. anywhoo since i dont have my grandparents to talk to anymore ya’ll get to listen to my ramblings…. so sorry to bore you lol! they showed a neat video in church i cant remember the website and tried to do a search but didnt find anything. but it was basicly that breath is God the Lord is breath yawa is breath in hebrew and spirit so awesome that was to hear and holy is whole just amazing how we can learn something everyday. i really needed to hear that today and it did set me at peace….